it's always been my greatest fear
and my dearest friend.
my bitterest empty space
and my fondest refuge.
but when I asked once more
for you to hold me in your arms
and this time I couldn't feel it
any of the beauty of loneliness was lost in an instant
and all my world came crashing down and I knew
if I didn't have you
there was nothing left to live for.
I have never been so
and maybe that was why you left,
so I might understand how much I care.
do not leave me alone