I am an introvert. I have a hard time starting conversations with new people, and it's hard for me to make new friends; most of the friends I have I've had for years. I hate being an introvert. I want almost more than anything to be able to be outgoing, and meet new people easily. I want so badly to be outgoing that I imagine that I am, and so I go places expecting meeting new people to be easy, and then I get disappointed because I get totally stuck. It's so very frustrating. Obviously God didn't make a mistake. He must have a reason for creating me an introvert.
Is He also the one who put the deep desire in my heart to be friendly and outgoing? Those are good things. So why did He make me introverted?
Every week, on Sunday morning, I have such high hopes for being outgoing at church. I'm sure that I'll be able to say Hi to everyone I meet, and get to know some new people. It all seems so easy...
And then I get there, and it's so hard for me to come out of my shell. Maybe it's a pride thing. That usually seems to be the problem with most of my struggles. Maybe I need to squash my pride and forget about my self-esteem. Maybe I also need to just let go, stop worrying, and trust a God who's bigger than me, and bigger than this universe. Maybe? I think a definite yes would suffice.